My Melody

Only a few more months until little Melody is born. I can't describe what it feels like to be an almost mother, it's like the pressure of the world is on your shoulders. Everything you do affects the little one that is slowly growing inside and everything you do is for her now, she's already taking over my life and she's not even here yet. Even though it's like carrying a parasite the love I feel for her is incomparable and I know it will only increase as she grows.

They say nothing is as wonderful as a mother's love and I'm already starting to understand that. Feeling her kick always brings a smile and her hiccups always bring giggles. Knowing she is growing bigger and stronger everyday makes me feel so proud of how well she's doing. There is so much you can learn about a child while it is still in the womb; Melody is stubborn, does what she wants, knows how to get what she wants, and like any little girl she has her daddy wrapped around her finger.

I hope she'll learn all the good things in life; God's love for her, to always be true to herself, to always be nice and generous even when others aren't, and to always have hope. I think bringing a child into the world is hard. There is so much bad and evil going around it's insane. A mother always wants to protect her child and with the things going around it's almost like you have to keep them in a bubble. Hopefully just a bubble of love will do though. I know she'll grow up to do great and wonderful things.

Wonderful Dream

I don't know what to do
Where to go without you here
A dull blade across my skin
A tear covered page
And an empty hymn
Oh where to go? Where to look?
You're my hopeless dream, my sweet melody
You're my stress release, my heart increase
When you look at me I'll see more than a hopeless dream
I'll see a new start with you
A hope to see this reckless dream through
What a wonderful dream you are my sweet melody

Empy Memories

Im sorry I left you my hope, my dream
Im sorry I left you alone in the streets
I hope you'll forgive me, my love
I hope you'll remember the memories we made
I hope one day to see you soon

You are my hope and my dream
My love and my joy
Im sorry Ive caused you so much pain and sorrow
Maybe one day you'll forgive me, my love
I miss you terribly
As empty memories take the place of me

Lets go Back

Lets go back
Back to when we were young
We could rule the world and care about nothing at all
Just you and me
Two peas in a pod
Like fish in the sea or bids in the sky
We belong together just you and me
We could rule the world and care about nothing at all
Together just you and me

So lets go back
Back to when we were young
Go down to the beach
Swim in all the irony
Think of how we'll never fall
Lets just go back
Back to when we were young
Im not ready to fall

Spring

A time of joy and love
Faith and hope
New beginnings and change.

Spring is when the heart is renewed
The soul is healed
And there is peace on Earth.

There is no hate
No sadness
And no hurt.

If only all could see the joy of spring
We could bring the hope back into this failing community
The love of God is all we need
To bring the hope back into this failing community